The Disappearing: First Act
I will not disappear so that you can feel more comfortable
I will not go away and hide
I will show up again and again
Out of sight out of mind, you say
Children should be seen and not heard, you say
Breath…In to your heart
Please close your eyes
In your breath, I sense feelings of sadness
sadness born of a belief that we are separate
that you can never be whole
Please take another deep breath
better, and yet the sad feeling lingers
You know there has never been a time in this life when I did not know you
can we be friends now?
I hold this relationship close- and stay tangled in knots
So you will never let go
Perhaps I can ride along and float
Perhaps I am not meant to get untangled by your ‘knows’ any longer
Take another breath please….yes
Or perhaps the knots are
your resistance to feeling what has been calling
Each expression that has been ignored
If you allow they will untangle
for a time…
and I will still be right here
as some may get tangled again
Accept and I will become free to be wrapped around you,
Like an anchor that keeps you safe in each storm
I will never leave you
Someplace deep inside you know this is true
and that is why your tears are flowing quietly at the moment.
After each release
A stillness rises
Wait, wait, wait a minute
I have a question
True or False?
For most it is near impossible to receive without an attachment to giving?
Or is it the other way around?
I want you to take another deep breath please….hahahaha
yes now we are laughing together
What a trickster
I am still here
Where did you go?
Well, I want to give myself to you unconditionally, but I can’t take that in yet…
The silence was too quiet
and I am frightened by what I think this presence will require
It is a practice
it is ok
Just breath in this notion —
Perhaps, I am simply the container for your unraveling?
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